Dear Richard and KathCull,
My heart goes out to you - to others who may read this...it is such a hard time for anyone who has a fresh loss. There are so many ways to recall your loved one, sitting across from you at breakfast, having a laugh with you during a sit-com, outside enjoying drinks and fresh air, just the routines of life are all broken and gone.
It takes a long time to deal with all of that...and as I have lost a couple of family members, I do recall how painful it felt. For each of us the pain can be different, and we can handle it differently.
Just know that the Forum is keeping an eye out for you - sending you best wishes tonight...and hoping that by writing you can feel a little less alone.
Hugs...and best wishes...
NatR.