Hi Carol - I think you are doing exactly what you NEED to be doing. There is NO right or wrong there just is. Allow yourself to cry and it's ok to be sad and sometime it is ok to be happy or joyful (happy / joy to see your nephew, don't feel guilty at all, or take away from your own emotions and feelings.
We are our own worst critics - we have a difficult time with ourselves. We are hard on ourselves. Just like when kids are born there is NO manual but we do it.
Allow yourself time to go through this process - I think (my own perspective) how much you loved this person - there is NO tap - you can't just turn on a tap or turn it off - the love will always be there & just like how deep and heartfelt your love is for this man of yours is how deep your grieveing/sorrow is - allow yourself to go through it. I hope that makes sense.
you may be emotional for 6 mos...up to 1 year who knows maybe longer??? Someone told me forget who there is NO time limit on such things. But it is ok and all those around you know this - they all do. it is ok to feel and go through whatever emotions/feelings you are going through it is ok. No need to rush anything or push yourself into anything either.
This is not the same thing but just happened to me & kinda hope it helps a little bit....
My ex just got married and I said to myself I am allowing myself to feel this hurt to feel this pain it is part of life. Because I loved him so very much - is exactly why it hurts so much / so I feel and allow that hurt to come - I need to so I can eventually (not now but eventually) get on with my life. it's not even been a year since we separated (after 16 yrs together) and he's married. My heart was in my throat for 2 days I could NOT even speak of it then I shared with two others and ya it still hurts but one day at a time. I've said it out aloud and shared with two others no talking about it yet just that he's married and it hurts - that is all I can say about that right now. Eventually I will talk about it to others - just not now. How much I loved him is how much I hurt - is how I see it. We separated because I moved in with my son's dad bcuz he has Stage 4B throat cancer and that was all there was to it period. No my son's dad and I are not back to gether or anything at all, but my son and his dad needed help for quite awhile. I wonder if we'd still be together if I hadn't moved in??? Who know oh well that is life. I would still make the exact same decision mind you - weird huh.
So yes you are where you are, is exactly where you should be. Regardless of how long it takes you - you are where you should be.
Hope this helps a little bit...take care you