I lost my oldest daughter on March 7, 2010 it was and will always be the saddest day of my life. My daughter Karalee died at 23 from cancer. She was diagnosed at 19 and I was with her almost 24/7 for the 5 years she battled the disease. I miss her every day and even though I can’t see her or hug her I know she is with me. I can still get weepy at any given time if I hear a certain song or see someone that reminds me of her. I don’t cry as much anymore but I have had 2 years to adjust to life without her. I unfortunately have a girlfriend who also lost her daughter when she was only 18 years old due to a terrible car accident. We always say that we belong to the suckiest (not even a word but it fits) club that no one ever wants to join and we don’t want any other members but it is a club. Only another parent who has lost a child knows what you/we are going through. The one thing that Deb (my friend) told me that helped a little was that “you never forget but it does get easier”. Her daughter passed away over 10 years ago and she was an only child.
I also struggle with “now what do I do” meaning I was a caregiver for 5 years and my world revolved around my daughter and now she is gone. I am blessed with 2 other children and a wonderful husband but I still feel like a part of me is missing and that part is Karalee.
I know how lonely and sad the days can be but please know that it does get easier.
Kim