Hi Missie and Jorola,
i neglected to comment on this thread - after seeing that Colleen was refreshing our memory on handling grief and loss. How do we all get through it?
i was glad to read missie's note about how tough this time of year is - and that despite all the Odin there is an undercurrent of "grabbing onto life again " and working on recovery.
good for you Missie!
you are going to make it . You still have a list of things you want to accomplish and I know you feel your beloved husband would want you to keep moving onward. I personally feel sadness and guilt at still being here when loved ones are gone. My parents, a brother, and although not lost to death I do feel a great loss within my family as one chikd (and grandchild) keep to themselves - and so I do understand in a way going through holidays without loved ones.
all I can say Missie is - you are brave and you are a survivor - you will come into the sunlight at some point... You will always feel the loss but you will also feel and remember the love, the good memories and I wish I could give you a hug.
Jorola, you write such interesting notes too - sharing the ups and downs and the uncertainty of your lide lately. Mick has had your support through all of his journey and now it's okay for you to take care of yourself.
i can only imagine how you went from highs to lows / and back agsin.
i know mick will understand you giving yourself a tuneup, a chance to breathe , let out the stress and drink in some peace and joy..... Something you probably have not really felt you could do yet - but I think you know this is your time...:)
scheduke some mini breaks, some weekends that are spent doing what you need :) no one else.
its hard to do - we all feel guilty to take care of ourselves
so to you both - I send you my thoughts and wishes - hoping you do this gift for yourselves
Missie - I have always wanted to see the east coast and now that you recommend the warmth of the east coasters :) - I really need to put it on my bucket list!!!
i slept two hours on Christmas Day - in the afternoon - I felt guilty doing even that . But honestly I was so tired. I think it is because I am feeling a bit like a lot of the forum members - hiding the sadness and loss - struggling to keep smiling ~ and knowing I need to be kinder to myself too.
its almost a New Year, I wish you the strength to move on, hug yourselves and say you are worth it!! We all do things in our own way and time - but I have to agree that being able to share feelings here - is a big help.
peace and comfort to each of you
sincerely.
NatR