I didn't go to the store today. There was no point, I wouldn't have accomplished anything anyways. I tried to do some errands, pick up some things needed for the store, etc. My head was just not in it. I came home....and cried.
Sometimes, you just wish you could run and run and somehow start all over....that this pain could be left behind. I know it's not possible. It's just a fantasy sometimes.
My Mom would love the new place, I know it! It is everything we have dreamt of and I am pursuing it in a way that is a bit different and that we have wanted to try. I just wish she was here to see it. I miss her excitement and suport and encouragement. My parents beleved in me so much and I always hear my Dad in my head telling me "You can do anything! You are so smart...you'll figure it out." My Mom was the same... "You are so clever, so creative and quick!" I don't want to disappoint them.
I have been collecting anything that I come across from the years gone by in the business. I was planning a collage of some sort, so I am touched that you also brought it up.
Tracie, I totally believe that the bird song was meant for you...not a coincidence at all. These signs are what help me get through. It is a relief to receive them as then I can at least reassure myself that they are okay...and watching over me.
There are a couple of songs that tend to show up on the radio it seems whenever things are rough for me. I believe it is my parents. Heard one today....sat in the Walmart parking lot and balled like a baby. The song is: I Won't Let Go by Rascal Flatts
Thanks,
Paula