Hello...
It has been a long time since I have written...
To update: I have closed the retail store and have put inventory in a sort of storage/workshop unit.
I needed a break to try to think about how I feel and where I want to take this...if anywhere...
Months have passed, and I would love to say I have clarity, but I do not. Some days i feel very certain of my decisions and others, I just cannot decide anything.
My thoughts and plans right now are to dissolve the company completely. I feel like I cannot "measure up" to what once was my Mom's business. I need to make a fresh start.
I am trying to choose a new name for the business and just keep it relatively small so that I can take care of the accounting, etc instead of paying the exhorbitant amounts I pay out now to an accountant because it is an incorporated business. I know, to some it may seem senseless to start over instead of staying with a name that is somewhat known...but I think I need to make it mine. I don't feel like it is me any more. I feel like it was "us" or, more so, it was my Mom!
I will then hopefully pursue the website....one step at a time...although I am getting anxious and bored and need to do something productive again.
The one point I find myself constantly struggling with is the thought that I am "trashing" what my Mom worked at for so many years and the fact that she left the business to me and I am "throwing" it away...
Is is okay to move on like this? Is it disrespectful?
I'm so used to having my Mom give me advice, that this is a very odd position for me.
It's hard to know what is okay.... I know that she's not here, but I don't want to hurt her feelings..does that make sense??
I hope things are going well - or atleast better - for you all.
Take care and thanks for letting me vent,
Paula