HI Tracie,
Thank you for you words of understanding and "Hug". I miss that so very much the hugs.........
I am off to my counsellor shortly and have many questions on how to deal with certain situations.
I feel like I have been running away from my reality. I manage to keep busy through the day, evening are painful and the weekends are the worse...so I go visit friends that live in other parts of the province, lucky to have them. I don't have to explain to these friends how I feel...they see my pain but what is worse than staying is coming back to an emply house.
May 12 would have been our 24th wedding anniversary, together 27 years, we always made a big fuss and celebrated as we always said it took us so long to find each other and we made a wonderful life together with our daughter. My heart aches so very much. He was the most gentle man.
I am 58 and a widow... I can hardly type the word becasue sometimes I think I will wake up from this nightmare and it will not be true...I only wish, I been having this wish for 31/2 years....just a differant nightmare now.
As I sit hear I know I am rambling, that is where my mind is...no focus. For the years my husband was sick, he was what I focussed on.
How unfair life can be...he was a great husband, father, son, brother, friend but most of all a good man.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post.
Lou