Hi RD I am also so sorry for your loss. I will be experiancing what you are going through soon as my husband of over 41 years is not expected to live. They didn't think he would live until our last anniversary. I understand the loneliness in a family of grown children and friends seem to carry on with their lives. Your life will be forever changed but the spirit of your husbands love will carry you through even if it doesn't feel like that now. I'm glad you found your way here as am I glad because I was feeling alone also. You are not and I hope I can support you through your difficult time in some way. Please know others do care.