Hello CandyGirl1965,
You have experienced much loss in the last while, please know you are surrounded by a community here that understands the depth of grief and the emotions that likely seem overwhelming.
A resource that the Canadian Virtual Hospice developed about grief that you may find helpful can be found at:
http://www.mygrief.ca/
Others share their stories and help you to realize you are not alone......
Sincerely,
Simone (CVH moderator)