Hi Carolyn Marie:
I'm actually laughing out loud as I begin to write this message to you because my crazy mouse just went commando again and flew off the table. I lost the message I had been composing but I was just getting started so I won't have to recall too much. Sometimes a fresh start is just what is needed. I'm beginning to think there are actually spirits guiding my hands to express what I feel and when they don't approve they sabotage me via my mouse!:-) Of course, I say this facetiously so you don't need to worry that I've taken leave of my senses. Oh my goodness, I depend on all my senses to feel my way through the mysteries of this world we share.
I am delighted that you returned to give us an update and to see you through your writing feeling so spirited and enlivened! What a wonderful memory you and your daughter, Victoria, created together even though she seemingly did all the hard work on the ice! :-) Her immediate and instinctively protective response to you reveals her depth and sensitivity and in the space of moment it almost overshadows her performance, for as your dear daughter she is that much more spectacular! I share Victoria’s and your enthusiasm about your newfound tradition being honoured next year. If prayers matter and I believe that they do, somehow the innocent and heartfelt hope of a daughter and her mother’s ardent heart will be heard. I don’t of course know any better than anyone else how prayers are answered, but I believe that we experience miracles daily when we look upon with wonder the fertile secrets of another’s searching soul. The connection we feel with our children is almost, if not completely telepathic as even in silence, and sometimes especially so, the communication between mother and child is sacred.
Victoria sounds so much like you Carolyn Marie. You live fully and seize the excitement of ordinary moments in an extraordinary time. She must be very deep, much more refined than others her age, I imagine, because she has seen now the uncertainty of life. Her compassion will grow in direct relationship to her experience in life, and she will follow your example to discover a safe place where inner grace and resilience will grow, lush and lofty. There are upsides to painful growth we all encounter, and in my view compassion is a rewarding result of empathy and understanding that is gleaned from difficult experience. Is there anything more rewarding than to see our own good hearts shine even more brilliantly through our children? Your love will smile upon your daughter and son for miles and generations to come.
Your humour kills me, kindly! :-) How fortunate that you have the great Mother Morphine to soothe your aches and pains and to stimulate and support your natural gift of optimism. While I wish with all my heart that you didn’t ever have any distress, pain or loss of energy, I feel grateful with you for each celebratory pain-free, uplifting and revitalizing moment you know. Blessings to you and yours Carolyn Marie, and enjoy a sun-shiny weekend with those you love and who love you so beautifully well.
There is love waiting here to greet you any time you want to return. No pressure. You have your priorities. From one East Coaster to another, there is no place like “down home” and no matter where you happen to be in the world, that identity travels with you and keeps you grounded to the certainty in an uncertain existence, that it is with our family where we belong and where our hearts feel most at home. You have an extended virtual family here for you always.
Hugs and more xo
Cath