Dear Bizzy,
my sincere sympathies to you.
your beloved is at peace and you courageously carried on through all the tough times.
now your focus is You;)
to heal, to mend, to re-focus. Tian said it correctly, the loss doesn't end your feelings, your grief.
be kind to yourself. Lean on others, and do post as you feel able.
you are not alone here.
sincerely,
NatR