Idontknow, you have so, so much on your plate. The only certainty is that you will survive this. There is no way that we can understand or alleviate your pain, I know. But rest assured that that if rumination helps you, then you have us as a compassionate audience.
I love the quote, “All you can do is all you can do. But all you can do, is enough.” You cannot “fix” things, idontknow, in the sense of making things perfect. However the key word in that quote is “enough”. It is and it has to be enough.
When this concept is understood and accepted (in my humble opinion), then rest assured that you have contributed to the betterment of the situation. Importantly, for your own peace of mind, you won’t suffer needlessly wondering if you could have done more. You can’t do more than is reasonably possible.
What are your thoughts regarding the above? It is too easy, I know, to offer “advice” when one hasn’t walked in your shoes. Forgive my naivety. I only offer my words in the hope that they bring you some measure of peace.
I admire you greatly, for the sweetness that you display in being the best daughter and sister that you can be. You are an inspiration and an example to all. I hope that you find peace in understanding the true meaning of, “All you can do is all you can do. But all you can do, is enough.” Please believe that what you do is truly enough.
- eKim