Dear Andreadzel,
It is so sad to hear about your mom's death. My condolences and sympathy go out for you and especially for your dad who is now grieving two mayor losses.
Your mom was really blessed for having you by her side comforting her and loving her as much as she needed.
You are right she is not in pain anymore and you are not seeing her suffer, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt you, and you have all the right to feel however you feel.
Grief is a journey and it just started for you, but you are not alone! Please don't hesitate to reach out. There is a lot of support here on Virtual Hospice and in the community as well. I don't know where you live but I am sure there are support groups in your community, it is always so nice to be able to meet and share with other people who are in the same journey. This can be helpful for you and also your dad, or anyone in your family who might benefit from it.
Wishing you the best in your journey,
ShiningStar