Hi Tracie, as indicated before, things are going much better. Having accepting the cancer and that my husband won’t die from it, was quite freeing. It was about late January that I had the breakthrough! Thank goodness, as I was falling apart fast.
As for my daughter, well, things aren’t going well at all. She’s bi-polar and started having manic episodes yesterday and this morning. It’s all new for me, so trying to adjust is quite stressful. When this happens, we take care of our granddaughter; we try to protect her from this as much as we can.
I see my doctor every 6 weeks, and she tries to keep me on track – but right now I’m so stressed. I try to exercise and eat right. But of course that falls to the way side when stress is involved.
It’s been such a difficult time for you Tracie, and now you have to deal with the fall out after someone you love and were close to passes on. I know this is cliché, but time heals everything. At this point, there hasn’t been enough time for you to heal. I know after my father passed, it took me 3 ½ years to go through the grieving process. I still miss him, but now I can think about him without crying. Give yourself and your daughters’ time to grieve and go through the process. Your husband sounded like such a wonderful man/person. Very caring, loving, giving and thoughtful!
I’m not too sure if I also told you, about 1 month ago, when we were at the surgeon’s office, he went over the PT scan with us. The original doctor failed to mention that there is cancer in one of my husband’s lymph node. I cried my heart out when I heard that. But we didn’t ask the question…not knowing right now works for me. I try to stay positive and keep sending positive vibes out there, I know he can beat this; and I know he wants to beat it, that’s enough for me right now. He’s lost so much weight too! I cook big meals for him, but he eats very little. This is fine, as long as he eats.
Take care of yourself Tracie! We are heading to Kelowna and Kamloops on Wednesday until Sunday. A bit of a celebration – to help celebrate his completion of Chemo/Radiation and a little celebration for his 50th birthday. Give yourself a big hug! Deb