Hi Melinda,
You are a wise woman Melinda. Now that Stan's buddy knows that you are on to him, I would guess that he will know better than to mess with you. I sometime's think these curves are thrown at us so that we aren't constantly dwelling on our loved one's illness. I watched closely over decisions that Len made knowing that he was not clear in his mind and needed protection from bad choices.
Wow, only two neighbors! I felt like I was living in a fish bowl after Len passed away and that 'neighbor' of mine ran through the neighborhood telling everyone about it. Even people who didn't know us were told. It made me feel that we were more at risk because of it. I was glad that we had a dog who has a mean bark and was a warning to anyone trying to get near us.
Thank god you have a full life with many outside interests. That should help you to get through the aftermath. Since any friends or family that are close by, decided to walk away from me I found that I had to do a lot of soul searching and figure out how to keep myself going forward. That's when I found this site and am so grateful for it. Between this and focusing on what I want in my new life, and friends at a distance that check up on me regularly I have found an inner peace that will help in the future and I have grown so much. Such a painful journey but an enlightening one.
What we have here is rain. It has been a long winter for many of you with the snow stubbornly not wanting to leave. We are forcasted to have sunshine this next week so I guess I'll be getting outdoors and cleaning up my gardens to prepare for selling this place. Although it's taken me a long time to get to where I am, I can look back at how far I've come and feel a sense of pride that those who stood back watching and judging and waiting for me to fail or crumble were wrong, so wrong. I'm going to make it in spite of them.
I came across an inspiring quote a while back that I shared on this site. It was about picturing yourself driving down the road in the dark and all you can see is what shows up in the headlights. It's about your life right now. Don't try to see what lies in the shadows, it is not for you to see right now. It will reveal itself when you get there.
Hugs,
Tracie