Hi Jimmie,
I to felt I must respond. I totally agree with Xenia. At first my friends were very supportive, but as mu husband's illness as gone on and on, they have fallen by the wayside.
My husband never wnated visitors as he didn't want anyone to see how his mind had deteriorated, he was embarrassed that he was ill, and never really acceptd that he wouldn't get better.
Our family to has gone through the almost dying to recovery and on andon so many times Ihave lost count.
So you aren't alone at all. But those of us here do understand and it is ok to be angry and rant and all of that. It is normal. You wouldn't be normal if you weren't angry with all that has happened to you. So vent and rant, I sure have.
Take care and know that we all are here for you.
vj