hi, nice to hear from someone who has been threw so much as i myself....
my moms family is being strange, and well, they are hurting me, but saying things to be like i am not doing enough, i am trying to be a good of a daughter that i can be, i can no longer be there all the time....in nov 2010 i was in a car accident and i am in chronic pain, and awaiting a hip replacement ....yes at my age....but it is not happening for all long time due to my age, i am only 39, so i young but not young...lol...
my son is 12 and is able to handle his emotions, we have in the last 6 yrs lost 6 people close to us....my dad, my father in law, grandmother, great great mother....and aunt and a uncle....
moms illness has been on going 6 yrs...but only found out 2 yrs ago what it is, and that it was too late, and nothing could be done...and that it just had to run its course....
mom asked me today a question and that is how did we get to this point....
The answer is she never wanted to go to the doc, and she never wanted to question him, or tell him she was not feeling good, she never questioned the blood work, or the hospital stays....it wasn't until she colapse did i take over her health, and made it my point to get to the bottom of it....
sometimes i wish i hadn't .....
as of today the doc called to give me a update...
the ammonia has increased and has now cause dementia....and paranoid delusions, and well her urine output is less than other days...and if it continues means death will be sooner...
as of now it could be a day, a wk, a month, no longer.....
she now knows everything i have come clean so she knows all, nothing i keep to myself...
she did not cry or say much....
she just reply oh, what next....
she said she remembered everything as to what she said to myself and to my hubby, but never said sorry
she has not said i love u nothing, i know she does....just she is so different and has always been different ...she has always been about herself and ordering me around and having me jump, even though i am in so much pain...
my doc just informed me i need to slow down...and well, said sorry and apolized, but said i need the rest and i know it....i am starting to get sick, and my ankle is kiling me, and sitting in the hospital for hours in the most uncomfortable chairs, and they don't have anything else for me to sit on.....i am larger and well for some reason all chairs are for butts smaller in size...
they are talking about sending mom to a palliative care unit, and well she hates it....i don't know if it will happen, and if it does it will only maybe when her life is down to the 72 hrs mark.....or her life and death...
thank you very much for taking the time
and for telling me what i said is understandable.....