Thank you CarrieK. You are so in my thoughts. I was just about to send you a note last night when, wouldn't you know it, my husband took a great fall. His legs are so weak. We ended up in the er. I had to call an ambulance because I did not want to move him. My husband is fighting so hard. He is sort of rebelling with the decisions I am making with his health. I tell him how afraid I am of him hurting himself. Thankfully he did not break anything. Got the results from the mri; no spinal compression; but I have concerns about spinal stenosis. I think that is what is called.
I am so sorry. I know how you are feeling. I have come home by myself when my husband was in the the hospital. The feeling is cold, your thoughts seem loud, then again, the silence seems noisy. I can imagine what you are feeling. I am sitting up now, and by now it is the 12th and our anniversary is today. We can't go anywhere because he can't walk. I almost feel like he is holding on for our youngest. My son is with his older brother. He has been gone a month for summer vacation.
Last night when we were in the er room, my husband told me,"Baby, I am so sorry. But it won't be long. It won't be very long at all." I had no idea what to say. I don't won't to brush it off.
Let me know how things are going. I know it is hard CarrieK. I feel like we have connected and I honestly feel your pain. My husband is 43 years old. Praying your strength and peace at this time.