So very happy for Nanalovesu. It means a lot to the rest of us who are going through the grieving process that when some days seems so impossible, there is hope for the next day.
It has been almost a year and a half since my husband Avery died. Unfortunately, the last few months, it seems like yesterday. The first year, you are so busy with getting everything in order. Everyone calls to seem how you are and pays some attention to you. Then it gradually wanes and you are on own. I have accomplished all the tasks that I had never done, that Avery did. I suppose that kept me busy enough and still does. But there is always something missing! Life seems quite empty without him!
I have realized there is only me and it hurts. I feel that I should not feel so alone and that I should be in a better place. I guess I am too hard on myself, and want everything to be like it was! I am still trying to find a new normal.
I see people who are single and they seem to enjoy it! Not having anyone to answer to or care for. I have never had to live alone so the transition from we to me will take some time. I miss being loved and spoiled by Avery! Just having someone to care about you on a daily basis fulfills life.
I will keep searching for my normal. Time heals they say and everyone has their own way of going through grief.
Regards
Jane