Dear Cath1
Thank you for concern. I have had a rough few days, seeing as it was six months on October 1st since Avery died. Trying to accept the loneliness has been a challenge this week.
Bereavement counselling brought out the fact that I am allowed to cry. I was holding back since I like to SMILE instead of cry. I always remember my mother telling me, you look so pretty when you smile! To be honest, I said I am tired of crying! They said that it’s ok to be sad, ok to cry, and there is no time limit. I knew that but for a stranger to tell me face to face made it seem ok and I wasn’t going crazy!
I am trying to find a new routine and it is the hardest challenge of all! Accepting that there is no one on the sidelines to talk with, to ask opinions about what I should do seems to be the hardest. I talk to Avery all the time, and some times I see a sign that I am going in the right direction.
So I shall keep crying and releasing my grief.
Thank you again for your kind words. They are much appreciated.
Kindest Regards
Jane