Hi Tracie,
We had a pleasant Easter, thanks! We went to my brother's overnight and enjoyed the Easter Bunny hunt on Easter morning together. My daughter, who is 7, still believes and her brother (14) and cousin (12) were great at playing along.
We then went to my brothers in-laws for dinner. It was a nice get together and with the kids and the company it didn't leave me much time to dwell on anything. It's hard to believe that this time last year my whole world was falling apart....
I have thought often about your story of waiting at the Doctors and how it must have felt for our loved ones. How sad isn't it? I feel the worst when I think of my Dad having to go through that so much. My Mother was totally different and had no time to contemplate what was happening. I think, perhaps, she was the more fortunate for the swiftness of her illness.
I start my grief recovery group on Monday. I am very nervous and looking forward to it too. I think I have to remember that it isn't going to magically "fix" me. :)
In the last month, I have had 3 people express to me that they were concerned that I did not or am not taking the time for me that I probably need to. They are afraid that I just rushed back into the business, etc. Their concern is that I am not allowing myself to grieve.
I am worried about them being right, but I really don't know. I think I am doing okay, but maybe I am bottling it all up....what will happen when it comes out? In hidsight, I think I did go back to work too fast, but I didn't want to spend my days sitting at home just thinking. I needed something normal to do. Plus, bills had to be paid!
It's hard to say if one is "grieving" properly...we are all so different.
I hope you are doing well...it is certainly nice to have some sunny days again!
Take care,
Paula