What a journey. My deep gratitude goes out to each and every one of you for the unfailing support you have given me through your wisdom, compassion and undeserved kindness. Truly each one of you have made this site a powerful and sacred place.
At a time when I was most vulnerable and weak, a time when I thought my world had ended, you were there. Your words gave and continue to give me strength, hope, direction and courage. I have learned so much this past week. I have experienced the necessity and power of forgiveness. I realize that all the tender words in our language are not just there as polite niceties but are actually essential for us as human beings. In practice they have the ability to transport a person out of the depths of hell and bring us back to a place of peace and stability. Communication, caring, kindness, community, compassion, reconciliation, courage, patience....the list goes on and on. I think I'm beginning to understand what is meant by spirituality.
I had to face my partner's father after what happened. I was so scared. I looked at him in the eyes and said, " I am so sorry" and hid my face in my hands. I couldn't say anymore. He simply took my hand and said, "It's just the circumstances, but thanks for the thought". He held my hand and we just walked for awhile. What a wise, gracious, classy human being! I am sooooooo lucky to have him in my life. Just as I am so lucky to have my partner in my life. They have and continue to bring a steadiness and peace into my life even after I upset the applecart.
I'm so blessed to have the community of help around me. I've reached out to so many places this week and all were there in some way to help me get back on my feet. I realize it is vitally essential that I stay connected to the community because as soon as I begin to feel I am alone I lose my balance. I find such comfort and strength in "being in the same terrible boat" as every one else who is facing the horrors of this profound boat ride.