Dear Bizzy,
What a revelation you have given. Now the pieces of the puzzle are falling into place.
I am so sorry about your daughter. That is a difficult, impossible place to be - watching your child pass.
Your writing tone has changed and it is obvious that you have found a way to deal with all of the feelings inside of you.
Instead of you reaching out to us for understanding and help - I feel that the tables have turned and now I have learned an important lesson from you about life, death, acceptance and getting through.
Its more about letting it all happen - and not fighting it.
I think your words will resonate with me today and for many days.
Like you I have to learn that acceptance and realize we just have to let what happens, happen.
Thinking of you today and grateful that you have shared your feelings and insight with us all.
Hugs,
NatR