Dear Tuna,
My heart goes out to you! I could go on and on about my own story in the "guilt factory" which is sometimes what I call caregiving.
When a person like yourr husband makes a brave and wise choice, you can expect all kind of reactions. When my husband finally agreed he had to go places in a wheel chair, I took him to a concert, and one of his friends greeted him, "So you've gotten lazy, needing your wife to push you around!" Trust his wisdom and your own.
And as a (better) friend told me, "Wanting it to be over is different from wanting a loved one to die." You are doing a great job. Be good to yourself.
Nouce