Good morning,
It has taken me some time to respond to a sentence in your post Xenia - which I think is profound.... “The alone feeling was worse than being lonely as I knew the reason why I was lonely and that would pass.” That ‘alone’ feeling is less than it was 6 months ago but every so often – like last weekend – can take over. It is very good to be able to share with others in the community who understand.
LW – did you find a way of respite that fit your and your husbands’ needs? Guilt, as my friend once said, the gift that keeps on giving! Have you found a way to rest and refresh?
Katherine