Hello Cathie

As a Pollyanna type person, my first response is to try and make you feel better – but I know that I cannot. Where you see failure, I could tell you all the things I read in your post that you ‘did’ for your mother.   I am glad that you are able to write down how things are for you – ‘a burden shared (can be) is a burden lifted.’  How wonderful that you found that little suitcase and it was not accidently cast out. Although it is not at all the same as being able to go through them with her, are you able to take some pleasure in lookng at her treasures?

Physical activity has frequently soothed my troubled soul – it must be frustrating not to be able to do the things you enjoy.  I am glad that you have medical support but I also say,’ Thank heavens for our four footed friends.’ We have a small dog and this winter it has not been easy to take her for walks – I miss it and so does she – if her restlessness is anything to go by!  I am more of a dog person and I am often amazed at how they can sense our feelings and are able to comfort. I loved those words “Heel boy. Heal me”.  
Take care Cathie
Katherine