Hey Highlanddancermom40,
I am really glad it isn't lung cancer, but feel your frustration about having to wait, again, and the anxiety that comes with such uncertainty.
I have been thinking of you often last week, and was waiting and hoping you would post your results, without daring to ask, because I am sure all the people that support you and surround you did that a lot (asking) and I didn't want to add to it.
You are amazing! You are able to use humour and that is really healthy! And with Carol watching over you and with your positive attitude, I am sure you will be able to overcome whatever is in store for you, if anything at all. We are and will be here for you, all the way.
Please keep us posted on the virtual hospice, as we do care.
I also think it is ok for you to be irritated by people's reaction to your news. Even if they mean really well, they don't necessarily have a real grasp of what others go through, or what the results really mean.
Lashing out , even if out of character, could be one way of regaining some form of control over a situation where you feel you have lost some of it. Your health is in the hands of others, and waiting for results, tests, and more results and answers is exasperating, so go ahead, do whatever it takes to keep your sanity!!
Looking forward to hearing more good news, I wish you
Good health :)
Serena