Hello everyone,
Welcome to the community Caitee. I am glad you found us. Although every person’s story is unique, Marstin and Missie have already shown that members here support and really understand.
You asked about what to do when you hit that wall of despair. I was also thinking about the many people you are grieving. I wondered if the article Grief Work might be helpful. It won’t take your grief away but maybe it will help in understanding…
You mentioned that you did not have family close by - are there friends you can turn to? Would seeing a counsellor privately be something you might find helpful or available?
Katherine