hi...my husband is palliative with stage 4 colon cancer with mets to liver. he has been battling this damn disease for about 10 years! he is sooo positive and he refuses to admit that he is dying!! he is a trooper, we have a son who is graduating in june and is17 and a daughter who is 16. i am hoping he makes it to our sons graduation!!!! this is soo guilty of me to say... but.... i am getting sooo stressed, pulled in every direction and still working full time. all i want to do is cry! when i talj about things to "close" peope @ work... sometimes i feel like there just liste'ning.. they really have no idea what im goung thru..and i end up cying and feeling liking an idiot....cause hes the one 'going thru hell NOT me!!!! then i get super jealous of their lives and what coukd have been for us!! how do i continue on knowing ibwont have him in the future?