I have a dear friend at the farm where I work.
In 2013 she was dx with stage 2 SCC of the throat. 30 rad tx and excellent results. We rode our horses...she came to all of my shows...my number one supporter, my right hand man.
Sept of 2014 showed cannonball mets to the lungs. They said 8 months without erbitux....10 months with it.
7 rounds of very aggressive chemo. I though she was dying. I though this is how death comes. I went to appointmemts and helped in every way I could. She had a boyfriend at the time and he helped also. I stayed nights at her house....she lives alone, she has no family.
Chemo ended in March. Tumours mostly gone...some small remenamts. Doctor said expect to be looking at treatment options again in 6mths to a year and would check things every two months.
She regained muscle mass, her hair began to grow. We went out for dinner and took a trip. we rode our horses and she came to my shows.
Things were as they had been before this past awful winter and so gradually cancer became less and less consuming. There was a wonderful summer ahead. Thursday was the first follow up. Tumours have returned in just these couple of months. This does not seem real....it is impossible for this to happen. I cant seem to get my head around what is coming for I am wiser to the tx now. She no longer has her boyfriend. I was distancing myself from this disease...I had though she had beat the numbers....her response had been so great. It is surreal to think that tuesday we are going nack to the chemo room. She is still improvimg for the winter...it is, in a word, impossible. It has taken a coulle of days to realize even on the surface what this information is really saying. I had spent months trying to gather information amd to umderstand what to expect and how this would go....but I did not see this coming...not after only a coiple of momths. I'm not sure I know how to do the next part..I dom'tt know I cam draw from. This simply can not be. WM