Dear caitee,
i can can feel the torn heart in your note, it seems like one blow after another sometimes....so very tough on you or anyone in similar situation.
although you are with a new spouse and have moved on with the outward areas of your life (very important to do ) the pain of lost love remains...and you are entitled to your feelings of grief and loss.
its sad to hear of the friend hit with lung cancer.....life surely is not fair....and it is so hard to see or hear of the news....even as a stranger listening in to your thoughts....I get it! It's damn unfair
I want you to feel encouraged and wrapped in a warm hug today....just know it's not anything you or I can fix, control or change
just try and be good to yourself and continue to mourn your lost love, and continue to move firearm and be good to yourself.
i don't think there is any easy way to fix the pain, no magic pill, or wish on a star - but your strength is going to carry you through. Time has a way of letting your heart and mind soften and recall the love, the good things, the laughter, the need to be part of a couple....and to keep on living your life.
its not for the faint hearted this thing called life. We have to pick up, keep going, and remember that your past helps create the person you are today.
really hoping that you will feel supported and embraced by someone who knows loss also, and I am sending you a bit of energy and sunshine today.
hang in there ;)
hugs from a stranger who cares - everyone here cares :)
NatR ❤️