Dear Pen Pal...LOL...Hi Tracie,
It was not I who won the 16MILLION DOLLARS!!!! Darn hey!
Obviously your mom's still taking care of her family...it's all good! About 1 year ago, I finally finished the grieving process for my father. In our culture, once you finish grieving, then the spirit/soul can go on into the next life; as I stated earlier, I haven't seen my dad in awhile, so wondering if this has happened. Oh well, I know he's happy and no longer in pain. It's weird though, when he passed away, I put a poem in the newspaper about pennies falling from heaven from our angels...so everytime I see a penny on the street or laying around, I think of him and know he is watching over me. While I was cleaning the house, I found 4 pennies and left them on the shelf, and finally put them in my granddaughters piggy bank this morning. I know a lot of people don't believe in after life and souls, but I really believe in it and know he takes care of me for as long as I need it.
About two years ago, we joined a hiking group lead by a guy named Peter. Well, Peter looks EXACTLY like my stepfather, who passed away one year and four days after my father passed away. We've gone on a couple of hikes with him and when we stop for our lunch or he explains something about the area, I just look and stare at him. His looks and mannerism are totally my step dads...amazing.
Again, yes, anger is exhausting. I know our children know it's a safe place, so they take their anger out on us...which is really quite sad and yet OK...I guess. I'm sure you know what I am trying to say.
You go girl...let those reno "boys" go - JK - do what you have to do. It's easier to be on the outside looking in and advising you what to do, rather than being the person having to do what you have to do. I'm sure your decision will be well guided.
We found our cat...poor thing was sitting on our deck. Although, earlier that morning, I went out on the deck to see if she was in our back yard and she wasn't there. Just after I got off the computer, my youngest daughter sent me a text, asking if I found her...I told her I was just going to go out and look around the neighbourhood. I decided to look on the deck one more time. When we let her out in the summer time, she just stays on the deck, and hasn't ventured out on the ground, so I was kind of worried about her getting lost. Low and behold, I looked out the door, she wasn't on the deck, I was just about the close the door, and looked to the right, she was sitting on one of the steps down, with an open mouth, with no noise coming out...awwwwwwwwwwwwwwe! So I gently went and picked her up and brought her in the house...she sniffed every area of the house before eating...then she went to our bed, which she didn't leave for two days...LOL...teach her to go out galavanting in the big city!
I have to thank you for allowing me to depend on you right now. I find it a lot easier to chat and "complain" with someone who doesn't know my family. A lot of my friends think I live in this "perfect" world with the perfect husband and family...this isn't what I project, but that's the general perception with them. So when I vent about my family, it really isn't a true venting, it is well guarded so my girl(s) are not perceived as a bad egg.
Don received his results from CT scan - the tumours shrunk (yay); however, he has to go for a biopsy (surgery) on his lymph node. He's just making contact with his GI Surgeon as to next steps. We should know more on Monday.
Well, our venture continues this weekend. We are off to Jasper National Park, hopefully, for a hike or two. It's supposed to snow, so Don mentioned, we may just be sitting in a pub listening to a jam session. I'm ok with that! Next weekend, we will have our granddaughter, so will probably do a couple of easier hikes...yes, we do spend a lot of time with our granddaughter, but it really does the heart and soul good. We enjoy our time with her and she really enjoys going on little adventures with us.
Let me know what happened with your workers. Strength can be found when and where need be. These "boys" may think they are intimidating you or bullying you, but little do they know you find strength from their weakness! Which exactly this is...what true man feels he can intimidate or bully a woman. Obviously they have a lot of growing up to do, and need to learn to respect everyone, female and male.
Take care of yourself, BIG HUGS sent your way (can't send you sunshine today, as it is gray and cloudy here, no rain tho). Deb