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Réponse de KathCull_admin
13 mai 2015, 3 h 03

Welcome to the community MsKBK.  

My sympathy - you along with Princess Peace, Harmony, MarksSister and BettyH have lost a dear family member and friend. "Firsts' can be so hard.  Those words, "setting her free" - wonderful words for something that must have been so hard. 


There are some words that made me think of you in an article on the Virtual Hospice site Grief Work“Grief has been compared to waves that come and go. Some days the water is more turbulent or stormy, but on other days there is a sense of calm and a quiet lapping on the shore. Like the waves, grief has no endpoint. We can experience intense feelings of loss years after a death. Sometimes these feelings are triggered by a special date, event, or a significant time of the year, like the holiday season. Sometimes the trigger can be a song you hear on the radio or a smell or a passing thought”.

What supports have you found in 'the boonies' MsKBK? Are there others along with your sister-in-law?

Katherine 

 
Réponse de Princess peace
13 mai 2015, 21 h 16

Hi Terri,
I'm glad your hanging in there.  As I read its so true about grief having no endpoint...and its trying not to find one.  I am also hanging in there.  My mom was here for three weeks and it was harder than I thought.  Seeing her pain seemed to intensify my own grief even though I stayed strong for her it was not so easy on me.
Darcy would write me everyday so I understand not having sister Sunday again. I go back and read the messages we sent to each other many times.  She said 2015 was going to be a great year....yes indeed as the Universe received another angel.   I do relate and am thankful this site can provide understanding and support for each other.

 
Réponse de JennJilks
14 mai 2015, 11 h 59

I have found that there is strength in sharing our stories. Let me share mine.

I moved, left behind family and friends, to care for mom. It was not a good move. She resented me, was in denial, and I had no support system. Dad was ill, too. My last memories of my father were being in the room as the PSWs cleaned him up. They decided that he needed an enema, despite the fact that he was eating very little. It was awful and I couldn't get the smell out of my nose for months. I'm sure many of you can empathise. My mom, comatose on the couch. 

That was in 2006/7 and these are the more recent memories that haunt me. Everytime such a memory enters my brain, using Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, I acknowledge it, and send it off. I deliberately bring up some of the good memories. The reasons why I loved my parents and why they loved me.

There are times to grieve, and tears need to be shed to cleanse our souls, but the difficult memories are very hard on me. Usually, Sunday afternoons, I would phone my mom and check in. I still find myself thinking about that. This is a wonderful memory. I take that moment to laud her and her influence in my life. I raise my soul to hers, and thank her for my life. 

This is how I manage. 
 
Réponse de NatR
18 mai 2015, 15 h 16

Hello to Monica, Princess Peace

I didnt see your thread...I guess I had a few things going on...but I am arriving late to say welcome to you...and hope that posting on the forum and getting replies is helpful to you

I can empathize with your loss.  I lost a brother...a long time ago...in 1991 - he was only 39 yrs old...and he died a tragic and painful death.  He left a young wife and three small children behind.

We were not close...I was the oldest, he was 2 yrs younger than I, we lived a long ways from each other as adults...but when I heard he was sick and knew he wasnt going to recover, I went and spent over a week with him and his family.  It was a good thing for me to do.

Although we hadnt been close....it was important to me to be there to support him, his wife and his little family.  I was never sorry that I spent that time.

The grief and loss...despite us not being close was really surprising to me...and as you say...it came in waves...and would hit you and knock you off your feet.

I can only say that as time passes it gets easier...for me it is now over 20 yrs but in so many ways it feels like yesterday...I can pop up a mental image of him laying on his bed, him standing in the kitchen with his wife rubbing his back and trying to relieve his pain...just little snapshots that keep floating by like a screen saver....but not on a daily basis...

His loss was the first really big loss I suffered.  I was only 41 and it was a shock for sure.

I love what you did - going to remember your sister in the forest...is that on Vancouver Island?  My brother lived there when he died...and because of my visit to him I ended up moving with my hubby and family to the Island...and spent 5 yrs.  It was memorable.

Giving random gifts to strangers in memory of your sister is a wonderful way to honour her, and teach others about kindness, reaching out....I am so glad you are making it a tradition.   

Sending you warm thoughts and best wishes...
Sincerely,
NatR 
 
Réponse de KathCull_admin
18 mai 2015, 20 h 45

Hello everyone, 
Reading your post NatR, I was reminded of a thread started by Razz,  The Gift and Blessing of Saying Goodbye   


The skim of snow we had last night is gone and although the wind is cool the sun is shining. Seems to be the usual unusual weather for May long weekend.  

I know that weekends and holidays can be lonely times when you are grieving – how did you spend this weekend Princess Peace, Mark’s sister, Harmony and MsKBK?


Katherine 

 
Réponse de Princess peace
19 mai 2015, 0 h 27

Hi All,
I did a lot of thinking this weekend (maybe because I was the caregiver as everyone in my house got the stomach flu so I was housebound).  The wave was big these last couple of days.  My sister was truly my best friend in this whole world.  She understood me and was there for me always....reliable and dependable and when you had love nothing else mattered.  No one else has ever been like her.  I guess I just need to write this for a couple of reasons: that I am grateful to have had that in my life and also that I miss her so much.  Just needed to say it and thank you all for listening as I know you understand. 
 
Réponse de Marks sister
19 mai 2015, 0 h 59

I've been keeping myself very, very, very busy-that seems to be the only way I have of dealing with the weekends.  My husband even commented to me that he isn't sure where I find the energy, but what he doesn't see is that I keep moving because it's when I'm sitting still that the grief creeps  up on me...
I'm finding that even during the week, I don't allow myself too much down time.  I'm not sure if it's the best way to cope, but it's working for me right now.

My biggest challenge right now is that my father is in ICU and may not make it.  Unfortunately, I've been estranged from him for many years (his choice, not mine).  I am trying to decide how to best deal with having another major loss in a very short period of time.  My brother passed away only a few months ago and now it's very likely that my father will not survive the infection he's battling.

Any advice from anyone out there?   
 
Réponse de Princess peace
20 mai 2015, 16 h 28

 Hello everyone,
One thing that has helped me has been a book called "Healing After Loss" by Martha Whitimore Hickman.  It is daily meditations for working through grief.  The other days page was an explanation like crossing a river (our loved one) and that I someday will cross that river when my time has come.  I try to think of the big picture (which includes my crossing over and that she will be waiting for me).  Sometimes that bigger picture is hard to think about yet also comforting at the same time knowing I will be with my sister again.  I did not want to think about death before this...I was afraid of it but its a fact of life and this experience is helping me face these fears.  
 I admit the "yeah but's" get in the way ...yeah but she was my best friend, yeah but I will be lonely for the rest of my life, yeah but life isnt the same without her".  All of this is true however it is now up to me to let the yeah buts run my life or keep comforting thoughts and good memories in my mind.  The "Healing After Loss" book validates how I am feeling and has helped me through some rough days.
I also thank this group for your comfort and understanding.  It feels good to write about this loss in a place where everyone is supportive. 
 
Réponse de Princess peace
14 déc. 2015, 6 h 16

Hi everyone 
I'm not sure if it's all this Christmas stuff going on with people buzzing around getting "ready" for Christmas but I'm not in the mood. Last year I had my sister with me at this time. This year I don't.  Even though I still have other family members around I still feel alone. Heavy hearted. Distracted. 
Im grateful for the rest of my family but .... this season seems harder than I thought.  Just wondering if anyone else feels this way?  
 
Réponse de KathCull_admin
19 déc. 2015, 15 h 15

Hi Princess Peace
It seems that the more we associate happiness with an event - like birthdays, anniversaries, holidays and Christmas - the greater the heartache and sadness when we can no longer share that time with the people we have loved.

I have avoided Christmas shopping, baking, decorating (apart from a wreath on the door) this year. I tried to put up the Nativity scene - which has always been my favourite piece - but ended up putting the box away... perhaps for next year.  Like you I feel heavy hearted and it's like there is a little cloud over me - not as much as it was a few months ago - but it still appears out of nowhere, often when least expected. I also find that it is important for me to be busy but also to have time to reflect and allow time for the tears, memories and sadness.  

It has been suggested that those who are grieving have to take on the task of finding new ways to live through the holidays. It's work isn't it to manage Christmas. My daughter and I decided not to be at home this Christmas. We are figuring it out as we go along. Reminded of your birthday celebration for Darcy - I am wondering if you and your family have incorporated any new traditions for Christmas?
Take care Princess Peace - you are not alone.
Katherine
 


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