Good morning dear friends,
It has been just over three months since mom's passing. I still feel very fragile and a little lost. Many times I have tried to respond to this thread and all your supportive and loving comments, but each time, all I could do was cry at the thought of it all.
Mom left us all a little insurance, so with that money I took a trip with my two adult children. It was very helpful to get away, spend time with friends and relatives, the beach and the sun. I visited my friend's grave and spent a lot of time with her daughter. I've been back home now for just over three weeks ~ everytime I drive the route that I travelled everyday to care for mom, I just want to turn around and go in any other direction.
I miss her so much and sometimes forget that she is gone. I'll think to call her for a split second and then of course, I catch myself and then feel very sad. It is times like these when I wish I could call my dear friend and talk to her about my feelings ~ but I can't, because she is gone too.
Sometimes, I just quietly talk to God in my heart and ask why? Why both of them? They were my support system in life and now I am supposed to be brave and just carry on without both of them.??
I am taking it one day at a time, but some days are harder than others. I try to remain positive and optimistic and keep busy and mostly, that is working for me.
Thank you all for being so kind and supportive during my darkest hour. I hope you all know how much it meant to me. Wishing you all comfort and joy upon your own paths.
Bright blessings, TrueHeart xo